I flipped the heck out last weekend and almost canceled the wedding. I woke up and all the feeling I had for them felt like they were gone. I thew away all my wedding mags. Refused to go in the room where the wedding things are and blamed all of this on FI's lack of home training and embarrasing me with some of the things he says.
A week before this happens my bridesmaids go to get fitted for their dresses and no one brings money...My own sister, bestfriend, my stepsister, his sister and sister in law. His sister and sister and law had enough gall to say they are going to get their dresses made and start taking pictures of each other in the dresses!!! It was maddness. The staff tells us we have to get the dresses ordered in two weeks or they won't be avalible for the wedding in May....I cried all the way home...at home...and almost didn't go to church the next day.
Three days after that the reception site canceled because of plumbing issuses. They are giving me back my deposit but I still bawled my eyeballs out. My WC found 8 different places at the end of the week and I felt fine after that.
Then the day before my meltdown we booked the cake and hairstylist. But FI's behavior reminded me so much like that of a child it seriously bothered me. My sister and step sister are plus sized and when I said I was going to get them kimono's but changed my mind.... He cut me off saying "yeah that's good, that would be a lot of fabric" My mom shoots me the harry eyeball from her rearview mirror.
I'm getting so tired of her doing that. Yes he says things without thinking sometimes but he is trying. I'm always catching heat for what he says or does, or doesn't say or doesn't do.
We get to Michaels and he's leaning on the counter half sleep. I tell him to sit the vestibule....When we are done he's sitting there sleeping with his mouth WIDE OPEN! In reality I know that this is boring... Shucks I was getting irritated trying to pick out flowers.
The night before he stayed up until two in the morning with his cousin. We get in the car and he's laying his head on me trying to sleep again...
He still hasn't been able to find a job. I'm putting out apps, he's putting them out. We're both frustrated.
After I freak out and tell my WC and mom how i feel. I'm remined that he will be this way probably the rest of his life and will he be a good leader and head of the house?
My mom and sister are asking me if I'm settling because he's shorter than I am and because well...I'll be honest right now his clothes aren't the greatest.
Sometimes I feel embarrased by how he looks. I'll be honest, but I know it will be different once he finds work...
Y'all I'm really frustrated. We're both praying about it and fasting and going to get counseling. I was so happy until that Saturday I woke up and felt different. I know my mom's feelings about him shouldn't bother me but they do.
Sorry this is so long. I've got more to say but I don't want to make a novel! lol
FH thinks the enemy is trying to steal my joy and keep us apart. He's willing to change and doesn't want to lose me. I keep second guessing everything. My mom's questions really bothered me. I want to know when he opens his mouth I won't have to cower or make and excuse for him....
There is no way one can be a true bride-to-be/wife-to-be without having at least one....and maybe a few mini ones too...
At some point EVERYTHING and EVERYONE is irritating. Especially your future husband. I went through the same things....his immaturity, his aggravating self...sometime men act and look too simple and homely. The act of finally "settling down" especially when you're a diva like me (LOL) is a jagged little pill to swallow. But what about the good times?
Your FH needs you right now. He may be playing into your accusations by acting out. So you may need to step back and get to the heart of the matter....Once I did decide to KEEP my DH I learned that when he makes me mad, he likes to act like a child to throw me off, but I don't give him a chance...I treat him like a man, and nothing less. We play around, but If I need him to be a man, I ask him something that makes him step up to his role as a leader of our family. My DH isn't that much taller than me, and once I put on my heels, its a done deal....Men need us to need them, and when they think you don't need them they act up and they act out....
I am sorry about your BM's...They will come around. They know that if they don't have a dress, then they don't participate....Just tell them that the dress you chose is the dress they need to get...If not, then too bad. Anyone who doesn't order their dress is out of gas....and there is nothing you or they can do about it....The worst thing that can happen is that you have less BM's than you started out with...and thats okay..Thats less gifts to buy them....But do give them an invite to be a guest with no hard feelings....Queens work through sitations with grace, so you have to use finesse...Don't even let them see U sweat, cause they love it! They can't touch you when it APPEARS that all is well....All you need to do is take your burdens to God and God alone....Confide in no one else for a little while, and God will tell you what to say to whom at the right time....All is well...
Love you.
Abeni ...babe you shouldn't ever had to feel like you need to make an excuse for him. Go with YOUR gut! Do you know what will make you happy? People do go through periods for changes but you don't want them to change for you ...they should change for them ...while you maybe can be an inspiration.
Can I ask something though ...What does your sister mean by .."are you settling bc he is shorter than you"?
[quote="Bumblebeekee"]....Queens work through sitations with grace, so you have to use finesse...Don't even let them see U sweat, cause they love it! They can't touch you when it APPEARS that all is well....All you need to do is take your burdens to God and God alone....Confide in no one else for a little while, and God will tell you what to say to whom at the right time....All is well...
Love you.
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Bumble thank you so much for your advice. I thought and sometimes think I'm going crazy!
I feel so alone sometimes as far as dealing with a man with some definate growing up to do. He's willing to change and has changed a lot since we started dating. My mom, sister, and grandmother are so quick to point out all his faults but rarely talk about what's good about him.
I know my mom wants what's best for me and doesn't want me to go through divorce like she did. I'm so afriad of divorce. I don't want us to hate each other.
Anyhow my pastors wife gave me lots of scriptures to meditate on and taking a break from wedding planning definatley feels good.
A part of me just can't wait for all of this to be over.
Abeni-I agree with Bumble and T!!! take this all in stride! and don't ALLOW anyone to bully you into thinking their thoughts; when times get rough and you are looking at FH and just wanting to kick him in the throat, think about the reason why you feel in love with him and focus on that instead of his present state; obviously it was something about him that charmed you so stick with that! and the short issue-hey as I was always told, it doesn't matter the height when you both are laying down! LOL (just a little "crude" humor to make you laugh)
[quote="Turiya"]Abeni ...babe you shouldn't ever had to feel like you need to make an excuse for him. Go with YOUR gut! Do you know what will make you happy? People do go through periods for changes but you don't want them to change for you ...they should change for them ...while you maybe can be an inspiration.
Can I ask something though ...What does your sister mean by .."are you settling bc he is shorter than you"?
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They asked me this because the guys I usually would talk to were 6 foot something and high yellow. He's probably 5 4 and brown.
He was in college when we met and his mom is a dietary aid at a hospital so he didn't have the best clothes and what not.
I also believe he shouldn't have to change for me. I've told him that. But the issue is some of these things will have to change for him to find and keep work with or without me.
[quote="soon2bmsj"] I was always told, it doesn't matter the height when you both are laying down! LOL (just a little "crude" humor to make you laugh)
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The funny thing about men is that they adjust, as long as we keep our standards high! When we were dating, DH would get so aggravated because I would dress cute when I traveled or when I went to the mall or to the store...I mean, I wouldn't wear the heels and make-up, but I never wear the scarf and rollers, I always keep my hair done, and I may slick on some juicy lip gloss, but whether I wear sweats or not, I always try to glam it up....So I could have easily started walking out in my slippers and dingy house sweats like he tried to get me to do claiming he was in a rush, but I don't....and so he keeps up with me...He knows that when we go out together, we're BOTH looking good. He still tries to guilt me a little and say I am so "bougie" or whatever that snooty word is, but I don't care! I have standards! When we met, he was no slouch, but as we got older and got a little extra change in our pockets, we go the extra mile...And your man will do it for you...especially when other eyes are looking at you.....My DH is not a PDA type of guy, but when we're out, and other guys(black or white) are being friendly with me, speaking a lot, oh here comes the PDA's now...so don't worry, he will catch up with you...men just take time...but for us, we have to show them that we are 100% real....ryde or die chicks, and will be patient and have faith in them....That makes them feel even better!
Y'all know I've been really struggling recently. The truth is for about a year now I've haven't been myself. I been I was really caugt up with my emotions and letting them rule me. FI would was constantly ministering to me but when he would bring the word of God into the conversation or try to encourage me...Sometimes I would feel angry. FI believed I had come incontact with an evil spirit somehow...
This thing would speak to him and had to begin to take over my thought life. I literally would be saying things that didnt' sound like me at all. I thought I was going crazy. I really thought I had lost my mind. I was feeling sucidal. It just didn't make sense.
I went to FI's church this Sunday to get councel after church and something happend durring worship service. As his pastor was praying he touched me and I began to just weep and somehow I ended up on the ground. As I was crying a woman began pour all kinds of scriptures into me and telling me things that no one else could know but myself and God.
She got me up and I began to worship again and his pastor came back to me and said "there are things in your past you are struggling with that not a lot of people have expirence with." Which is definately true. He spoke about how people have hurt me but how God is going to free me from this thing right now.
I promise you I just began to stumble backwards and eventually fall back. I felt weightless There were some women behind me who caught me but I still ended up on the floor again.
As they began to pray for me.....I started to scream....Seriously I was screaming at the top of my lungs but I didn't know why. Something made me want to fight them and I tried to get them off me. I dug my nails in the carpet. I screamed until I was tired. The women were touching me and speaking scriptures and tounges. The woman from before was speaking about me going into mininstry and that I was precious. It was whirlwind of activity going on and we must have been down there for about fiftteen minutes.
Eventually I got tired. My eyes were barely open and but I couldn't move. Then I felt cold all over and began to shake....
When they finally got up it was like I could see everything clearer. I wasn't having the same thoughts as I was before. I AM better than I was before. The Lord truely delivered me from all the things that were holding me back.
I am a completely new and different person and although I know the battle will be even harder, I will press toward the mark.
Sorry this is so long but I had to share my testimony with y'all.
Some may think I am/ was crazy. But I'm here to tell y'all that the enemy is real and he's going to attack your mind first before anything. There is a real battle going on and only the Lord can give you the strength to fight. You can't do it on your own and I definately never could have made it with out Him and the Word of God.
Abeni,
It looks like the battle (for YOU) is over. I am glad you let the Lord take over....And thats all I have to say about that, other than I have been there too.
A WONDERFUL testimony Abeni!! I will praise God for your life and the mighty things he has planned for you. All old things have passed away and what you experienced is a new YOU...don't hold this testimony...someone needs to hear this! You continue to press forward because the ENEMY is truly real!
Reading your testimony gave me chills because yesterday I was on a spiritual high all day long so I know the joy you are feeling!! We had a choir memeber that Satan had bound with drugs-she was GONE!!! 3 weeks ago she got in contact with a few ladies because she was on her last leg literally-cracked out, dirty, stinky etc...! they got together and prayed for that sister and yesterday she led this song and BABY she had EVERYBODY in that church weeping!!!!!!! The choir wasn't even singing background like we were suppose to because we all were shouting and crying because we saw how God delivered her! :)NEVER DOUBT THE POWER OF GOD!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zv4BtYZvscg
I am so glad family and thank you for your prayers and witnessing to me all this time!
I am truely blessed and I truely understand now that God can only get through to you sometimes when you are completely broken. I was crying so hard almost all my makeup came off. I was curled up in a ball. I'm sure there was just gross stuff everywhere lol!
After I got up his sister in law (who was praying over me the whole time) took me in the bathroom and I told her how I just woke up last weekend and didn't feel like I wanted to marry him any more and she said that "we know the enemy is completely against marriage and is going to fighty you tooth and nail about this. She said that postponing the wedding is good because I've got to let God work in me and Fi's got to let God work within him. She said that right now we are like the Children of Israel need to walk by the fire by night and cloud by day. And we are not to move until God moves. She said we both need to pray together, read our word together, and seek God continually together.
Later when we got with FI's pastor he basically told us that I was letting other people cloud my image of FI too much. The bottom line is yes FI has his issues but he loves me. My momma isn't marrying him and neither is anyone else.
I came home and decided I am NO LONGER going to let my emotions tell me what to do! I have decided to trust what Lord says an STAND on his word. I will no longer be double minded. I will trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not to my own understanding!
This man has listened to me say everything from " I want some time apart, to I think we should break up and said although he loves me with all his heart, because he trusts God completely he would not be moved....
Wow...I don't know any other man that could listen to his girl point out all his faults, talk about leaving him, and go back and forth about marriage and stand!
I am truely blessed man. FI is truely a blessing, faults and all.
Sister Abeni, all men have their faults. The dressing thing, there is a very subtle way of changing his style. We as women, buy most of our men's clothes if not all. Slowly but surely, you slip a few things between his and either give away or throw out something. Pretty soon, he has a closet full of different things and none of the old remains.
Praying helps darling. Don't give in to the devil. We know that he's a liar, but we must call him out as a liar as well. You are God's child and the devil has no room in your life, thoughts, etc... I will continue to keep you in my prayers, always.
Beautiful veil!!!!!
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Beautiful lady!
Love it!!! Thanks for posting the picture Future.
Delight yourself in The Lord & He will give you the desires of your heart!Ps 37
I flipped the heck out last weekend and almost canceled the wedding. I woke up and all the feeling I had for them felt like they were gone. I thew away all my wedding mags. Refused to go in the room where the wedding things are and blamed all of this on FI's lack of home training and embarrasing me with some of the things he says.
A week before this happens my bridesmaids go to get fitted for their dresses and no one brings money...My own sister, bestfriend, my stepsister, his sister and sister in law. His sister and sister and law had enough gall to say they are going to get their dresses made and start taking pictures of each other in the dresses!!! It was maddness. The staff tells us we have to get the dresses ordered in two weeks or they won't be avalible for the wedding in May....I cried all the way home...at home...and almost didn't go to church the next day.
Three days after that the reception site canceled because of plumbing issuses. They are giving me back my deposit but I still bawled my eyeballs out. My WC found 8 different places at the end of the week and I felt fine after that.
Then the day before my meltdown we booked the cake and hairstylist. But FI's behavior reminded me so much like that of a child it seriously bothered me. My sister and step sister are plus sized and when I said I was going to get them kimono's but changed my mind.... He cut me off saying "yeah that's good, that would be a lot of fabric" My mom shoots me the harry eyeball from her rearview mirror.
I'm getting so tired of her doing that. Yes he says things without thinking sometimes but he is trying. I'm always catching heat for what he says or does, or doesn't say or doesn't do.
We get to Michaels and he's leaning on the counter half sleep. I tell him to sit the vestibule....When we are done he's sitting there sleeping with his mouth WIDE OPEN! In reality I know that this is boring... Shucks I was getting irritated trying to pick out flowers.
The night before he stayed up until two in the morning with his cousin. We get in the car and he's laying his head on me trying to sleep again...
He still hasn't been able to find a job. I'm putting out apps, he's putting them out. We're both frustrated.
After I freak out and tell my WC and mom how i feel. I'm remined that he will be this way probably the rest of his life and will he be a good leader and head of the house?
My mom and sister are asking me if I'm settling because he's shorter than I am and because well...I'll be honest right now his clothes aren't the greatest.
Sometimes I feel embarrased by how he looks. I'll be honest, but I know it will be different once he finds work...
Y'all I'm really frustrated. We're both praying about it and fasting and going to get counseling. I was so happy until that Saturday I woke up and felt different. I know my mom's feelings about him shouldn't bother me but they do.
Sorry this is so long. I've got more to say but I don't want to make a novel! lol
FH thinks the enemy is trying to steal my joy and keep us apart. He's willing to change and doesn't want to lose me. I keep second guessing everything. My mom's questions really bothered me. I want to know when he opens his mouth I won't have to cower or make and excuse for him....
Rant over.
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You just joined the club! The Meltdown Crew....
There is no way one can be a true bride-to-be/wife-to-be without having at least one....and maybe a few mini ones too...
At some point EVERYTHING and EVERYONE is irritating. Especially your future husband. I went through the same things....his immaturity, his aggravating self...sometime men act and look too simple and homely. The act of finally "settling down" especially when you're a diva like me (LOL) is a jagged little pill to swallow. But what about the good times?
Your FH needs you right now. He may be playing into your accusations by acting out. So you may need to step back and get to the heart of the matter....Once I did decide to KEEP my DH I learned that when he makes me mad, he likes to act like a child to throw me off, but I don't give him a chance...I treat him like a man, and nothing less. We play around, but If I need him to be a man, I ask him something that makes him step up to his role as a leader of our family. My DH isn't that much taller than me, and once I put on my heels, its a done deal....Men need us to need them, and when they think you don't need them they act up and they act out....
I am sorry about your BM's...They will come around. They know that if they don't have a dress, then they don't participate....Just tell them that the dress you chose is the dress they need to get...If not, then too bad. Anyone who doesn't order their dress is out of gas....and there is nothing you or they can do about it....The worst thing that can happen is that you have less BM's than you started out with...and thats okay..Thats less gifts to buy them....But do give them an invite to be a guest with no hard feelings....Queens work through sitations with grace, so you have to use finesse...Don't even let them see U sweat, cause they love it! They can't touch you when it APPEARS that all is well....All you need to do is take your burdens to God and God alone....Confide in no one else for a little while, and God will tell you what to say to whom at the right time....All is well...
Love you.
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Abeni ...babe you shouldn't ever had to feel like you need to make an excuse for him. Go with YOUR gut! Do you know what will make you happy? People do go through periods for changes but you don't want them to change for you ...they should change for them ...while you maybe can be an inspiration.
Can I ask something though ...What does your sister mean by .."are you settling bc he is shorter than you"?
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[quote="Bumblebeekee"]....Queens work through sitations with grace, so you have to use finesse...Don't even let them see U sweat, cause they love it! They can't touch you when it APPEARS that all is well....All you need to do is take your burdens to God and God alone....Confide in no one else for a little while, and God will tell you what to say to whom at the right time....All is well...
Love you.
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Bumble thank you so much for your advice. I thought and sometimes think I'm going crazy!
I feel so alone sometimes as far as dealing with a man with some definate growing up to do. He's willing to change and has changed a lot since we started dating. My mom, sister, and grandmother are so quick to point out all his faults but rarely talk about what's good about him.
I know my mom wants what's best for me and doesn't want me to go through divorce like she did. I'm so afriad of divorce. I don't want us to hate each other.
Anyhow my pastors wife gave me lots of scriptures to meditate on and taking a break from wedding planning definatley feels good.
A part of me just can't wait for all of this to be over.
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Abeni-I agree with Bumble and T!!! take this all in stride! and don't ALLOW anyone to bully you into thinking their thoughts; when times get rough and you are looking at FH and just wanting to kick him in the throat, think about the reason why you feel in love with him and focus on that instead of his present state; obviously it was something about him that charmed you so stick with that! and the short issue-hey as I was always told, it doesn't matter the height when you both are laying down! LOL (just a little "crude" humor to make you laugh)
[quote="Turiya"]Abeni ...babe you shouldn't ever had to feel like you need to make an excuse for him. Go with YOUR gut! Do you know what will make you happy? People do go through periods for changes but you don't want them to change for you ...they should change for them ...while you maybe can be an inspiration.
Can I ask something though ...What does your sister mean by .."are you settling bc he is shorter than you"?
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They asked me this because the guys I usually would talk to were 6 foot something and high yellow. He's probably 5 4 and brown.
He was in college when we met and his mom is a dietary aid at a hospital so he didn't have the best clothes and what not.
I also believe he shouldn't have to change for me. I've told him that. But the issue is some of these things will have to change for him to find and keep work with or without me.
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You are exactly right! :)
Well then the comment/question to me ...still makes no sense ...
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[quote="soon2bmsj"] I was always told, it doesn't matter the height when you both are laying down! LOL (just a little "crude" humor to make you laugh)
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LOL WOW!!!! It worked! Thanks MSJ
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The funny thing about men is that they adjust, as long as we keep our standards high! When we were dating, DH would get so aggravated because I would dress cute when I traveled or when I went to the mall or to the store...I mean, I wouldn't wear the heels and make-up, but I never wear the scarf and rollers, I always keep my hair done, and I may slick on some juicy lip gloss, but whether I wear sweats or not, I always try to glam it up....So I could have easily started walking out in my slippers and dingy house sweats like he tried to get me to do claiming he was in a rush, but I don't....and so he keeps up with me...He knows that when we go out together, we're BOTH looking good. He still tries to guilt me a little and say I am so "bougie" or whatever that snooty word is, but I don't care! I have standards! When we met, he was no slouch, but as we got older and got a little extra change in our pockets, we go the extra mile...And your man will do it for you...especially when other eyes are looking at you.....My DH is not a PDA type of guy, but when we're out, and other guys(black or white) are being friendly with me, speaking a lot, oh here comes the PDA's now...so don't worry, he will catch up with you...men just take time...but for us, we have to show them that we are 100% real....ryde or die chicks, and will be patient and have faith in them....That makes them feel even better!
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Y'all know I've been really struggling recently. The truth is for about a year now I've haven't been myself. I been I was really caugt up with my emotions and letting them rule me. FI would was constantly ministering to me but when he would bring the word of God into the conversation or try to encourage me...Sometimes I would feel angry. FI believed I had come incontact with an evil spirit somehow...
This thing would speak to him and had to begin to take over my thought life. I literally would be saying things that didnt' sound like me at all. I thought I was going crazy. I really thought I had lost my mind. I was feeling sucidal. It just didn't make sense.
I went to FI's church this Sunday to get councel after church and something happend durring worship service. As his pastor was praying he touched me and I began to just weep and somehow I ended up on the ground. As I was crying a woman began pour all kinds of scriptures into me and telling me things that no one else could know but myself and God.
She got me up and I began to worship again and his pastor came back to me and said "there are things in your past you are struggling with that not a lot of people have expirence with." Which is definately true. He spoke about how people have hurt me but how God is going to free me from this thing right now.
I promise you I just began to stumble backwards and eventually fall back. I felt weightless There were some women behind me who caught me but I still ended up on the floor again.
As they began to pray for me.....I started to scream....Seriously I was screaming at the top of my lungs but I didn't know why. Something made me want to fight them and I tried to get them off me. I dug my nails in the carpet. I screamed until I was tired. The women were touching me and speaking scriptures and tounges. The woman from before was speaking about me going into mininstry and that I was precious. It was whirlwind of activity going on and we must have been down there for about fiftteen minutes.
Eventually I got tired. My eyes were barely open and but I couldn't move. Then I felt cold all over and began to shake....
When they finally got up it was like I could see everything clearer. I wasn't having the same thoughts as I was before. I AM better than I was before. The Lord truely delivered me from all the things that were holding me back.
I am a completely new and different person and although I know the battle will be even harder, I will press toward the mark.
Sorry this is so long but I had to share my testimony with y'all.
Some may think I am/ was crazy. But I'm here to tell y'all that the enemy is real and he's going to attack your mind first before anything. There is a real battle going on and only the Lord can give you the strength to fight. You can't do it on your own and I definately never could have made it with out Him and the Word of God.
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Abeni,
It looks like the battle (for YOU) is over. I am glad you let the Lord take over....And thats all I have to say about that, other than I have been there too.
We've been Happily Married 2 Years and Counting:)
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A WONDERFUL testimony Abeni!! I will praise God for your life and the mighty things he has planned for you. All old things have passed away and what you experienced is a new YOU...don't hold this testimony...someone needs to hear this! You continue to press forward because the ENEMY is truly real!
Reading your testimony gave me chills because yesterday I was on a spiritual high all day long so I know the joy you are feeling!! We had a choir memeber that Satan had bound with drugs-she was GONE!!! 3 weeks ago she got in contact with a few ladies because she was on her last leg literally-cracked out, dirty, stinky etc...! they got together and prayed for that sister and yesterday she led this song and BABY she had EVERYBODY in that church weeping!!!!!!! The choir wasn't even singing background like we were suppose to because we all were shouting and crying because we saw how God delivered her! :)NEVER DOUBT THE POWER OF GOD!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zv4BtYZvscg
I am so glad family and thank you for your prayers and witnessing to me all this time!
I am truely blessed and I truely understand now that God can only get through to you sometimes when you are completely broken. I was crying so hard almost all my makeup came off. I was curled up in a ball. I'm sure there was just gross stuff everywhere lol!
After I got up his sister in law (who was praying over me the whole time) took me in the bathroom and I told her how I just woke up last weekend and didn't feel like I wanted to marry him any more and she said that "we know the enemy is completely against marriage and is going to fighty you tooth and nail about this. She said that postponing the wedding is good because I've got to let God work in me and Fi's got to let God work within him. She said that right now we are like the Children of Israel need to walk by the fire by night and cloud by day. And we are not to move until God moves. She said we both need to pray together, read our word together, and seek God continually together.
Later when we got with FI's pastor he basically told us that I was letting other people cloud my image of FI too much. The bottom line is yes FI has his issues but he loves me. My momma isn't marrying him and neither is anyone else.
I came home and decided I am NO LONGER going to let my emotions tell me what to do! I have decided to trust what Lord says an STAND on his word. I will no longer be double minded. I will trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not to my own understanding!
This man has listened to me say everything from " I want some time apart, to I think we should break up and said although he loves me with all his heart, because he trusts God completely he would not be moved....
Wow...I don't know any other man that could listen to his girl point out all his faults, talk about leaving him, and go back and forth about marriage and stand!
I am truely blessed man. FI is truely a blessing, faults and all.
Wedding Ticker from WhenIsMyWedding.com
Sister Abeni, all men have their faults. The dressing thing, there is a very subtle way of changing his style. We as women, buy most of our men's clothes if not all. Slowly but surely, you slip a few things between his and either give away or throw out something. Pretty soon, he has a closet full of different things and none of the old remains.
Praying helps darling. Don't give in to the devil. We know that he's a liar, but we must call him out as a liar as well. You are God's child and the devil has no room in your life, thoughts, etc... I will continue to keep you in my prayers, always.
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